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Hey you guys! I'm Kerry & I live in Illinois. My birthday is 02/03/1991 & I'm 14. I love to sing, dance, and act. I've always wanted to go into modeling, too. My friends are my life, and I dont know where I'd be without them. Even though that fact is the most true fact ever, I dont turn to my friends at first with problems. I vent through music. I tend to always be listening to music. Whenever I have the time, that is. I'm in my freshman year of high school, and things are way hectic. Wanna know anything else? Just ask!

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Name: Kerry Lynn
Birthday: 2/3/1991
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

i hate you

Thats it. I hate you.

I hope you die. no no..cuz thats mean.

I hope i never have to talk to you again. Your an ASS.

Fuck you.


Sunday, February 19, 2006

Currently Watching
Family Guy, Vol. 3
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Some things you probably dont know about me..

Im shy. Really shy. You probably wouldnt guess by the super energized act i put on. Sure, im always really energetic, and i love to have a good time, but people scare me. And when im with people i dont know, i act extremely energetic for a reason. A simple reason that no one would ever guess. The fact that im shy. Putting on that act makes people see that im outgoing. They dont actually see the real me though. I dont like to talk about who i am, or what i wanna do in life. And i dont like to talk about how im feeling unless im extremely close with you or trust you A LOT. When i tell you i 'dont want to intrude' or that i 'have stuff to do' when you ask me to do something..its probably because i wouldnt feel comfortable and im not in the mood to put up my act. But no one sees me for me...they see me as the energetic fun-loving person who will talk to anyone and everyone she comes across. True as it is...its not me. I used to be like that. I used to ALWAYS be smiling. Always be happy. Lately though, i've been hurt so badly that i just kinda..shyed away from everything and now im so shy i cant even put on my act for anyone because im afraid they wont like that me either.

And yanno what? im afraid of life. im afraid of failing. Because to me, what i've done so far in life is a failure. And to go through life not knowing what i want to be, not knowing who i am..thats failing to me. Everything that i could even imagine to be in life im afraid of failing at; acting, modeling, singing, fashion design..everything in there would make me deal with some kind of failure. Whether it be just a person telling me they didnt like the way i did something, or the way i put something together, or someone telling me i wasnt good enough to make it in those kind of businesses. Either way i fail. then i'd just back out of it and shy away..and i dont want to have to do that. This is why i'd never try out for a school play. I'd be to afraid to fail and humilate myself. Though i've realized now that humilation is a part of life, im still afraid of it.

im really not as content with myself as i put off. i hate the way i look, and i hate the way i act. i basically hate everything about me. The only things i do like my eyes. Everything else just seems to be nothing special. im not pretty enough, like some girls at school, to get guys. And my personality? My real one..well is just plain dull. Theres not much to me, yet theres so much to me. I guess you just basically have to figure me out before you can see that im nothing worth talking to. Maybe its the act i put up that makes people take a second look at me, but i rarely get those, anyways.

 

so basically..i've had a rough few weeks. I've lost a few friends here and there...i've been called a cunt a few times..and i've become even more scared of myself than i already was. Things have just been going downhill. I donno whats wrong with me. I used to be all smiles and all fun..and now i feel like i just tend to be depressed and shit.. I think the only time im truely happy is when im with my mom, dad, Joey, or Steph. And with ONLY them. when im with them and other people, i tend to shy away from conversation and hide behind myself.

 

family guy=the shit.
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Sunday, January 15, 2006

Soooooo....this weekend was boring. no no wait, thats a lie. This weekend was kickidyass. :) ha Friday after school Nicole came straight to my house with me, && then we both got ready, && headed out to the game. The game was FUCK-FREAKING-TASTIC. It was so entertainin. lol We have like 9 guys in the box at one time && got over 15 penalties. Anyways, so afterwards we ended up coming back here cuz no one could decide what to do. So Nicole && I had fun here. Thennnn...got up yesterday && watched TV for basically the whole day. Both showered, got ready, && headed to dinner. Thenn..went to target for a bit && to the game. The game last night was pretty boring. Way less people there too. :( But drumline was there, so i had fun banging on the drums. lol Hm, lets see...after the game we snuck into the school with Beck, Neil, && the rest of drumline && ran around for a lil bit. I had fun doing flips down the hallway. lol && dancing my butt off. Thennn...Neil dropped us off at home && we watched 40 year-old virgin. && went to sleep. We were gonna get up at 8 today to go running, didnt happen though. && basically all we're doing today is studying for finals. && Monday we're going riding. So it should be kickass. Thennn...finals are on Tuesday, Wed, && Thursday. I've got first 2 on Tuesday. 3 on Wed. && only 1 on Thursday. so its kickass && we've got Friday off. haha

 

so yes. since Dalt && Drewy are mad at me for not updating, here ya go boys. Just for you.

 

<3Kerry


Sunday, November 20, 2005

I've learned a lot these past few months. Mostly from the guys I've been hanging out with lately. And since I've learned so much about myself, the world, and the people around me..I decided I would fill you in on the secret of life.

 

ha. sounds like the lion king.

 

  • Promises arent real unless you make them real

Think of all the times that someones promised you something. Not just something small, like going to the mall, but something you really wanted. Think of the promises that have been broken and then think of why they were broken. Was it your fault? Did you not hold up your end of the bargin? Perhaps things you want dont always come to those who rush into things, but on the other hand, the ones that wait dont get what they want either, do they? I figure, you have to be somewhere in the middle to actually get your way; not rushing it, but not waiting for it either. So next time someone promises you something, 1) make sure you keep your side of the deal and 2) if for some reason this promise doesnt seem to be coming true, work for it; just because you want it, doesnt mean you'll get it.

  • Kisses from boys could mean nothing.

Now, think of that special someone you've had a crush on forever. Think of the things they've said to you. Think of the reasons you like them. Think of them giving you a kiss. Now, think of that kiss meaning nothing. Think of it as a kiss from a friend. Wouldnt that hurt? I've learned that boys will do anything to get a little something. Even if that means hurting the people close to them. So girls, beware of the assholes out there, and stick with the good guys that wont hurt you. Or kiss you and diss you.

  • Things you say most definately come back to haunt you

Karma. Ever heard of it? Yeah, it sucks and it seems that girls get it the worst. That boy you liked? You told your friend and she told him. How rude, right? Now that boy is avoiding you. You're crushed. Next time your definately going to think about who you tell things to before you do it, right? Thats what everyone says. Say someting stupid on accident? Your getting bullets for it. Dont you hate how things are so screwed up with you and a friend. One bad move could send your friend into i-hate-her mood. This lesson isnt telling you not to speak your mind, but I am telling you to watch how you say the things running through your head. Next time you hear a rumor, make sure you dont let it get to you and spread it around more. It'll kick you in the ass sometime.

  • No one will truely know who you are until you know yourself

I love how everyone says 'you know me better than i know myself.' Isnt that the perfect quote? The funny thing? Thats not even the slightest bit true. If you havent fully gotten a hold on yourself, know yourself 100%, no one else will truely know you. The way you act for one person could be the total opposite of the way you act for someone else. The solution to this major problem? Take a day off for yourself. Go for a walk and think of your life. Look back on the good times you have with friends, both new and old, and think about all times you wanted to just leave the scene of the crime and disappear for a while. Cool off for the day and get to know yourself. Then go back to your friends and show them how much more understanding of yourself you are.

  • Crying in bed for a whole weekend will not make him come back

Now, I know girls do this all the time. It's one of those movie things. You think because it works out for the hopeless romantics in the movies it should work for you, right? Wrong. Sitting in bed, eating a box of chocolates, for a whole weekend wont make him come back to you. And your friends will most likely get annoyed with you after a while and you'll sit there alone. Dont cry over him for too long. The faster you get over him, the faster you'll be able to go out and have fun again. Think of it this way, your relationship with your boyfriend of a year just ended and your crushed. All you want to do is go rent a few romantic movies, get a box of chocolates, and sit in bed and cry. Forget the movies and dont waste your time getting fat with the chocolates. Sure, crying will help you a little, but dont lock yourself away in your room. Go out with your friends to a club, or a sport with a bunch of guys you know, or even dont know, and have fun. Flirt and be single. The more guys you flirt with, the better you'll feel.

  • What doesnt kill you will make you stronger; what makes you stronger can kill you

Now I know all of you have heard the saying 'what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.' Trust me, I've gone by this saying for a huge part of my life. Nothing in life is going to kill you, unless you let it and it will indeed make you stronger. But on the other hand, look at it from a different point of view. What makes you stronger could be killing you piece by piece. Now I know your thinking, what is she talking about? Think about it. It didnt kill you the first time, so you built up the system to defeat it, but you still feel hurt. You will always feel that pain. More and more pain build up, along with that wall that forms when it hurts you. The more pain, the harder it is to build up that wall. Soon enough, its going to break and then what? Your going to lose it all.

So for all you girls out there, dont let the boys make you crazy, save yourself before saving your friends, and make sure you think about things before you let yourself get into it.

 

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

I hate how I second guess myself.

 

with everything. :-/

 

&& I hate how I go for the guys that'll never like me.

 

like always. :(



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